"Shoe Drop"

Dear Diary,

The house is gone.

Even though I'd contacted the managers, and one had told me that they'd be gentle about it, and IM me to come get my stuff.. I guess someone didn't get the memo.

I woke up to find a bunch of offline notices from Second Life, letting me know that my things had been returned to me en-mass, and that I'd been ejected from the Somersley Community group. No warnings, no IMs, no "you've been a great neighbor, sorry to see you go".. just bam, here's your stuff, get out.

To be fair, I certainly knew it was coming.. and the managers have no control over the fact that the messages say "you have been ejected" or not... but still, a kind word would have been nice. Why didn't I pick up my stuff before that? Well if Mommy had logged in at the last minute to pay the rent, I certainly wouldn't have wanted her to find my room empty.

I'd logged out in my bed.

I logged in to find myself standing on the street, now removed from the parcel's access list.. still wearing my Pajamas. I TPed to a sandbox, and changed my clothes.

I logged into my adult av's account, and rezzed up a small platform on a small, disused piece of land, and cobbled together a nice little one-room house out of prefab parts, then rezzed out a streaming media TV. The rest, I think is going to be up to Anwenn to decorate.. assuming that she, or rather I, decide to stay here.

Home sweet temp

Small and simple, but nice. Will probably need some work tho.

It's really just a stopgap measure, and I fully realize that.

This little house, this platform, is just one tiny step in the project of "keeping Anwenn". I'll need someplace safe to go when things get rough out there. There will be people who will not enjoy my being around.  I might change-out the house in time.. but the point is the same, I need a "home" where I can go when I need to.

I'm in a lot of denial right now. I know that when things settle down, I'm going to have wounds over this that need healing. How bad those wounds will be still remains to be seen. Did I lose a house and an RP community? Or did I lose my family too?

Thankfully, I can still cling to hope for the moment. Hope that Mommy will come back. Hope that we'll rebuild and start again. Hope that she hasn't been crushed by everything that's happened in her RL and now in SL too.

It's WAY too early to start talking about other families (someone asked). I'm still dealing with the loss of the place I called home for the last 4 months. And I still cling to that hope that the Lee family can survive this.

But it takes two.