"Tests"

Dear Diary,

Mr. Dog has been more friendly to me lately, and started following me around, and sitting by me. I gave him a doggy treat from the box in the kitchen, and took him upstairs with me. I like cats a lot, but he's nice for a crazy old dog. He's sitting here with me in my room as I write this.

Today was the day I had to turn in my big assignment, one day before the new due-date. After days of working on it, I carried all my papers and packets on the bus, and took them to the office. I dunno what I was expecting, but whatever it was, it didn't happen that way. I took my papers in, and she asked me a few questions about my interests and hobbies, and asked me about my art classes at my old school, then she said I needed one more page from home. I know I read the packet over a dozen times, and they never mentioned needing this page, but whatever. At least there's still time to turn that part in.

"School" is our code for things that happen outside of Second Life, or more accurately, time I spend offline from Anwenn's life, in RL or whatever. A lot of the stuff here is encoded versions of RL stuff. The paperwork I had to turn in today was real, as was the missing stuff I had to provide unexpectedly.

The other day, Mommy and Modello had a fight. I don't know what it was about, but Modello seemed angry at someone who wasn't there. Mommy tried to stop him from leaving. I don't remember a lot after that, cause I turned on the radio and started cleaning my room. Then I cleaned the bathroom, and after that, I did the laundry Mommy asked me to do.

I wanted to know what was happening, but I wanted to have my chores done, and show Mommy I was obeying her. And I know that when she fights with someone, it always gets worse when they think I heard them. The last time she had a fight.. the last time I saw.. she sent me away for a long time. I know she was in the hospital, but still. I don't want her to want me to leave again. I dunno if that makes sense.

In the week or so since that fight, Modello hasn't been around much, but another guy, Cory, has been visiting. I don't really know either of them, other than they're both big guys. They both make me nervous when they're here, and I dunno what to say to them. I always feel like I should go to my room when they're here.

Yesterday when I came home from school, I was still worried about that test, and the fight Mommy had with Modello. Mommy was home alone, waiting for me when I got home. Well, alone with Tatie. Of course, Mommy wanted to go out on an adventure.

I dunno how to tell her that I just want to spend time with her. She always wants to go-go-go.. shopping, exploring, running around outside and so on.. and all I want is to sit and cuddle. She worries constantly that I'm not adjusting, or settling in.. yet she's always got me on the run to catch up.

I didn't want to argue though. Time with her, going places.. is still better than time without her. Mommy asked where I wanted to go, and I was like "uhm, wherever you want to go" and I grabbed my coat and hat. I wanted to say "to watch TV with you".

We ended up going to a big Christmas thing they set up at the fairgrounds or something. There were lots of pretty things to see, and a lot of characters from those old Christmas cartoons they show every year. Lots of places like Santa's workshop, and a house where they had animated elf dolls sleeping in beds, and even a huge kitchen full of animated dolls pretending to cook things. There was a place to sit on santa's lap, but it was just another animated doll, not even a real person. It was kind of a weird place.. all around there were the sounds of the motors to run the lights, and the dolls. They even had fake reindeer.

The parts I really liked most, were the few times I got to sit with Mommy, like on the sleigh ride. Then she started getting tired of exploring and started getting a headache, and I told her I'd be fine if we just went home. We got some cocoa and left for home.

And when we got home, we had more cocoa and sat together. Mommy kept apologizing for us leaving before we were done.. and I ignored her, cause all I wanted was to sit with her and cuddle. But all too soon, it was time for bed.