"Dear Mommy"

Dear Diary,

Since I have no reliable way to reach her, I've decided to leave a note here for Mommy to read. For those of you who have triggers regarding losing parents, families ending, etc.. you might just wanna skip this post.

If you rilly wanna read it, click below.

Dear Mommy,

I love you. I think you know that too. The months from my rezzday until camp in February, were some of the very best I ever had in almost 7 years of using Second Life.

Camp changed me, and more importantly, it changed what I wanted for my life in SL. I wanted more of a life than I'd had to that point. I didn't want Anwenn to be "a character".. I wanted to fully embrace Anwenn as a part of me, and me as a part of her.

I wanted you to be a part of that too.

After camp, things weren't the same with us either. You had things go so horribly wrong in your real life, and they took you away from SL. What happened specifically, I don't know. We tried reconnecting a couple of times after that, but I guess the energy, time or interest just wasn't there for you anymore.

And that's ok.

I know a lot of kids in this position would resort to emotional blackmail, using loaded terms. I'm not going to do that. I'm just not.

What I am going to say, is that it's been over 2 months now since we last got together 'pixels to pixels'.. and honestly, with the changes following camp, I simply can't keep waiting indefinitely. And if you were here to talk to, I think you'd agree.

I do miss you.. every day. And please don't mistake this for something 'easy' for me to do. It definitely isn't.

While I've removed references to our family from my blog and profile, and am "closing the door" on what we had.. I'm not locking it. If you decide you can, and want to come back, that you want to try and reconnect and rebuild.. just let me know.

In the meantime, I hope you won't begrudge me the fact that I am going to go ahead and move on.

I still love you, and I'll miss you.

Anwenn