"Paradigm Shift"

I'm considering re-designing my blog here, a little bit.

When it was first created, I'd intended it to be an in-character, roleplay journal, as told from the perspective of a character I was playing in an RP family, in Second Life.

Camp Hardknock changed that. It changed me. It changed my perspective on what I wanted with Anwenn, and what I wanted her life to be. I wanted her to be more, to be more of me, and to be her more of the time.

Certain outside events occurred not long after camp, and I won't detail them all here.. but I found myself withdrawing, and more isolated on my so-called 'main' account, and at the same time, 'on pause' with Anwenn while her SL Mom worked to try to sort out her own RL issues.

But in that time of pause, Anwenn has occasioned to do "SL Things" with SL Friends. People I met at camp, and one longtime friend from my main account that I was finally able to get to spend time with once Anwenn existed.

But not everything in SL makes sense in the universe we created for Anwenn's blog. The constant 'untruthful euphemism' of "School" and "Aunt Kelly" began filtering it's way into and out of friendships, and confusing things all the more. And then Anwenn started doing things that simply made no sense to share here.

Like going sailing with other kid friends, no adults present. Or going flying with Mari in her airplanes, and she's only 8-anna-half.

I dislike deceptive duality, and I dislike even more feeling like I have to 'leave out' some of the really fun and rewarding times, just because they make no sense for the character Anwenn to have experienced.

I considered the idea of creating another "Voice" like these school handouts here.. but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that the out-of-character content was likely to become the "normal" content, with the in-character stuff being the exception.

Sadly, most of the "players" and characters in Anwenn's family seem to have checked out for reasons of their own. It's down to Anwenn's Mom, and the characters made of scripts and prims.

And to be fair, with the extended absences of Anwenn's Mom from SL.. it's hard to write anything at all in character for Anwenn, that makes any sense at all.

Rather than pack it in on Anwenn, or let this blog rot and just start another one ("Finding Anwenn" is a great name, I'd hate to retire it).. my choice is to adapt this blog to something less formal, so that I can share what's really going on, and what really mattered to me.

There will probably then be some crossover talk, where I talk about things I did, when I might not have been logged in as Anwenn, or might not have been logged in at all.

But the formality of in-character speech, is making it impossible to continue. And right now it's just easier to relax that rule, than to not say anything about the great things going on.